‘mukha ka talagang PC, pati sarili nireformat’ - she said, giggling. Seriously, I think I really should.
Job transition takes a lot of me away from my usual me. My zest, my happiness. Sometimes I see myself staring blankly somewhere. Letting go of those otherwise meaningful conversations. I find myself meek and prone to worries. My room’s a mess. Heck even my laundry’s in bales.
I want myself back. That’s what I’m gonna do.
First, I want to pause, if it’s not possible I want to stop the time. The world will stop, and ponder with me. I want to think and look back where I am right now, and where I’m heading. I want to have a clear path.
Second, I want to exorcise myself. I want to get rid of my bad habits and all of my not-so-good intentions away from me: banishing the dark alter ego on someplace where he can wreak havoc no more.
Third. I want my brain out so that I can clean it. I want to remove all bad memories and low self esteem-ness to go down the drain.
Fourth, I want to love and be loved. I want to feel that I’m important and special and no to be pushed aside. I want to feel the pride and the joy of living and walking tall.
Fifth. I want to have an out-of-body experience. So that I’m able to separate myself from work-centric me to fun-loving, adventurous and travel-loving self.
Sixth, After harnessing and perfecting the art of OOBE, i want to clone myself many times. So that one will work for the company I’m into, the second will worry of the things I always worry, the third will be the family man-always following and serving the family, the fourth will do my laundry, the fifth will clean up my room, and yours truly (the original) are relaxing with Aya somewhere in Puerto Princesa City.
Seventh. I want to inject myself with an always potent and always effective serum of love. So that I have the time, the energy and the joy of being with her. So that she will not be having second thoughts on the things, many things.
Eight. I want to upgrade my brain to a higher capacity - so that I can learn all the things I want to learn fast and easy.
Ninth. I want to upgrade my body - eating as much as i want to eat but not getting fat nor flabby. But in fact getting slimmer and hunkier everytime i eat.
Tenth. I wish one of these will happen, if not all. For those who will be asking me why do I wrote this, the answer is simple: I just want to have the time of my life here on Earth. Who knows?
Life is short so do the most of your time fulfilling all your dreams. You may never have the chance if you’re six feet below. Death for me is a chilling revelation - it’s like waiting for your blind date, you know she’ll come but you’ll never know what she looked like. It will unfold only the moment that you see each other. You’ll never know.
I hope it’s not too late for me. Haay… I really need to reformat myself…
