Those people, who, I may presume, already know my status.
Well… you know the details.
Another cycle has just begun. The process of identifying what is better,
weighing things, and packing things up has started. I know you’ll be laughing
mad at me when you finally get a hold of what I’m saying here, maybe curse me
for not having the strong will, nor firm in what I’ve said before (just browse
through my blog, ok?).
Life has its way of showing us the pros and cons of what we chose. Often than
not, these are not instantaneously flashed in front of you. Rather it is a
slow, complicated -yes, and sometimes bitter process. I, for one, maybe
enjoying what I chose for this timeframe, but who knows that eventually, that
mysterious hand will once again shook me from where I stand and reveal yet
again another imperfection to my seemingly flawless decision.
I won’t blame you if you find the situation I’m into kinda irritating. I just
can’t. But let me tell you this: I maybe responsible for putting this whole
process into motion, but this action was not done haphazardly, and thought
about it, well, almost.
And for one, I’m not the only one responsible for this. It is set in motion by
factors not necessarily controlled by myself. Factors, which if I can deduce
into simpler things, can easily be attained yet hinder the ball of cycle from
moving and rolling again.
I know it’s the same scenario all over again. But this time, there’s a thing that
differentiates this process from the rest - I am now apathetic on what the
outcome would be. I just don’t want to believe, don’t want to put myself into,
to put my faith on it a hundred percent.
I just don’t want to assume anymore. I’m tired of it. Well, maybe because it is
bad to assume in the first place. So now I’ve learned my lesson. Just do your
own thing, and nothing much.
I have to pack my things up, walk straight and never look back.
